Day 1 (Tuesday)
Looking at how well Julian had coped last week in school, I thought it would be fine with John sending him to school alone on his way to work. I went ahead to help my mum purchase medication and thereafter attend a talk at a nearby area.
John SMSed me after he left Ju at school. He said Ju sang his own song with only one word for the lyrics, “Mummy, mummy, mummy, mummy…” all the way to school on the bus. I can imagine the sleepy passengers on board must be awaken by him. Haha!
At about 1030am, a teacher called me to inform me that Ju fell backwards from a little step while he was trying to jump up and down from the step. When I fetched Ju from school, he looked so happy to see me. Another teacher told me he cried for me today, and that was earlier before he fell. After we left, I asked Ju did he cry in school and he said yes. Then he said “Ju Ju cry because Ju Ju waiting for mummy.”
Poor Ju… He must be wondering why I did not accompany him to school today. He was probably afraid that I would not be back to fetch him despite John and I having told him that I would fetch him from school.
Day 2 (Wednesday)
John and I accompanied Ju to school together today. When we all entered the gate, Ju said “I don’t want to say bye bye.” We stayed for awhile, accompanying him to choose a work to do. A teacher saw us and initiated to bring out play doh from the fridge for the younger kids to play with. She brought Julian to join in the fun and we took the opportunity to say bye to Ju. He drop his playdoh and cried “I don’t want to say bye bye! I want mummy to stay with Ju Ju! I want to follow mummy! I want bao bao (means to carry him)! I carried him and walked to a quiet corner. Another teacher saw us and gently offered Ju to bring him see a group of older kids working on eye check. Ju agreed and allowed the teacher to carry him. John and I then said “See you later!” to Ju but he did not respond and we left.
A teacher told us this is a common behavior of a child new to school. They are usually fine in school for the first one or two weeks before they go into a realization period. During this period, they will try to make us stay with him in school. If we stay awhile each time he cries, he will just learn that this is the way to make us stay longer with him. She suggested that when we come on Friday, she will try to distract Ju to an activity and we will say goodbye and leave.
I felt so sad to see him cry for me like that. I am afraid that he will feel that we are abandoning him. It is so contradicting. Last week when he happily said bye to us on the first day, I felt like it does not matter to him whether I am with him or not. Today is a heartbreaking experience.
When I went to fetch him later, teacher told me he sat at the step crying very sadly for a good 2 minutes while she sat with him silently throughout. After that, he stopped crying on his own and was fine throughout the whole morning. He would go to the gate occasionally and ask “Where is mummy” without crying. When the teacher told him that he needed to give mummy some time to take a bus, he would go off and do his work.
Day 3 (Friday)
I was quite anxious for the past two days whether he would cry in school today and went to search for ideas online on how to ease the process. Most articles suggested that there should be a “ritual” in saying goodbye.
I verbally went through the process with Ju yesterday and told him we CANNOT say “bye bye” to each other, and would only say “see you later” because mummy is coming back later to fetch Ju Ju. (Ju cried at hearing bye bye so we thought better change a word).
The process is… Daddy and mummy will bring Ju to school together… Ju will put his bag and water bottle in place… Daddy and mummy will give Ju a big hug… Daddy and mummy will say “see you later”… then it will be Ju’s turn to say “see you later”… Ju open the gate for daddy and mummy… then daddy and mummy will step out… Ju close the gate…
We also tried to prepare him by anticipating him to help the teachers bake cookies on Friday, which was on the schedule. At times when he said he did not want to go to school, we told him that he will miss the chance of baking cookies as a result. Then, he will say he want to go to school.
We even put a family photo in his bag, asking him to go and kiss daddy and mummy whenever he misses us.
John and I accompanied Ju to school together today. It was much easier but Ju did not get to open and close the gate for us. Instead, a teacher carried him to see the preparation for baking later and Ju said “See you later!” to us. PHEW!! Haha!
When I fetched him after school, teacher told me he had one episode of whining but was totally fine after that. She said he sang and sang to himself throughout the day. In fact, Ju did not want to go home when I ask him to! He was engrossed cleaning table and folding handkerchief so I waited till he was done before we left.
These are the Christmas cookies Ju and his friends baked today… taste yummy!
What a week! His tantrums had reduced so much this week but it was another emotion to deal with…
Julian, can you see how anxious daddy and mummy are? I hope you are enjoying yourself in school and will settle in soon.