She cries… She smiles…

Jeanne is 4 months old today. First 3 months of her life was filled sobbing, crying, wailing, screaming…

Why? I wonder too… she is just so different from Julian comparing between their early life.

I reflected and figured…

During the early days of Ju, there was not much activities around to take my attention away from Ju. I recalled… I could read my book or watch my favourite shows on TV while he was sleeping. Cooking was not a priority at that time. We could easily settle our meals by dining out. Now, I need to cook for the family especially Julian. At that time, housework were basically done on maintenance basis. Now, constant tidying and vacuuming are required with Ju and activities going on at home. At that time, I could carry him, sing with him, play with him, be with him everytime when he is awake. He soothes contentedly by nursing most of the time when he cried. Now, I could not carry or be with Jeanne as much with all the chores to be done and need to settle Ju too. As a result from the time I bonded with Ju, he became a very emotionally secure child… till today he still is. But for Jeanne, it does not seem so.

Because of what I experienced with Ju… I expected handling Jeanne after birth will not be tough.

Reality sets in when Jeanne was born. During the 2 days stay in hospital, I knew it is going to be different. I expected she would nurse to sleep but she rejected nursing when she had enough milk. I expected swaddling would be the solution to sleep but she screamed when being restrained. Nurses from the nursery commented she cries alot more than other babies. Back home, crying is her main activity in the day. Some say she is doing lung workout but I thought it is too much. Even when we carry her upright, lying down, any anti colic position that we knew of, it did not help. Nursing does not attract her either, she cried worse when there was let down. Everyone who had seen her crying commented that she knows what she don’t want and she obviously knows how to protest.

There were times when she would be crying less, that is me carrying her in sling and out of home. We figured she needs visual stimulation outdoors.

At home, I must confess that I did not carry her as and when she cries which is just so constant. I would finish whatever I am doing on hand before I attend to her. Gradually she began to cry herself to sleep sometimes in the day. She also found her lovely fingers which she learned to later soothe herself to sleep. Recently she is beginning to like the idea of nursing to sleep and I am really glad about that. During Ju’s time, I always thought how nice it will be if he does not nurse to sleep. Now I disagree to my own thoughts.

Each time I see her sucking her fingers now, I could not help but relate that she is feeling insecure and stressed and I feel bad about it.

These few weeks she had improved… less cries… More smiles… How sweet it is to see her smiles… I can’t get enough of them…

She smiles when…

She sees me awake in the morning…

She sees handsign of “change” when it’s time for diaper change…

She lies down on the quilt after a long trip outdoor in sling…

We smile at her…

We talk to her…

I am totally humbled by her. God send her to me to teach me what it means by every child is different.

Meeting Jeanne

Everyone was looking forward to meet Jeanne…

Julian brought along the toy he had chosen for Jeanne and was eager to meet and give it to her…

Finally he can carry her…

Nai Nai…

and Da Bo…

Visit by God sister… Clare who got a try to carry Jeanne and was very gentle with her…

Fascinated by how tiny baby’s toes are…

Julian and Jeanne’s Godfamily

Tai-epor…

Shu gong and family…

Ah ma…

Jiu Jiu…

I am not Ju Ju, I am Kor Kor!

Julian seems to be very happy with his new companion and proud with his new status. He would often tell us ” I am not Ju Ju, I am kor kor!” or “I am a good big brother!”

These are the precious moments we had managed to capture so far…

Crying on his tummy early in the morning, a forgiving brother.

Chose a toy for her taking care that it is not something small and sharp…

SHe don’t know to hold the toy yet so he turned to talk to her instead.

Talk, talk, talk…

Lying down looking at her face…

Holding her hand…

He thinks mei mei is sick…

Bathing her together with daddy…

Learning to swaddle her, his way…

Soaking with her…

She looking at him…

Nap together…

His favourite is placing her lie on his lap…

Eensy Winsy Spider…

Her head keeps “falling”…

She is very heavy!

Her Arrival

Introducing Baby Jeanne

The moment of happiness and relief…

Her first cry…

Her weight…

Her first garment…

The hands that carried Jeanne to the world… Dr Douglas Ong…

Thank God for blessing us with another child to our family, bringing Jeanne and me through this pregnancy safe and healthy, and for answering our prayers for an easy after birth…

Preparation

The big day of arrival is nearing… Nesting syndrome is setting in in the family…

Thanks to Cynthia and Joyce for all the hand me down nice baby clothes, you had helped us fill up Jeanne’s wardrobe. Also thanks to Karen for the pairs of pretty shoes for Jeanne…

The mass washing…

Ju sorting out hangers for himself and Jeanne…

Daddy added a new pole into Julian’s wardrobe at Ju’s level so that he can help himself with his own clothes.

Ju hanging all his clothes onto the new pole…

Spring cleaning… Haha.. Thanks to daddy and Ju’s hardwork! I got to rest on the couch taking photos while the work is going on…

Kitchen cleaning and lining the stove with foil to prepare for oily cooking during confinement…

We reshuffled the furnitures in Ju’s room so that there will be an empty area for Jeanne to rest while kor kor works…

After a day of hard work, we found Ju fallen asleep on the floor like this… Thank you Ju…

Ju practising to dress baby on his doll…

Next… wait…

Jeanne Update

Finally uploaded all of Jeanne’s scan pictures into laptop… So far she is always sleeping during scan time…

29 weeks old

29wks

31 weeks old

31wks

33 weeks old

33wks

At 36 weeks, Jeanne was in Footling breech position (standing), Gynae raised it as a concern and arranged for a Caesarian on 9th Nov (38wks). He said I goes into labour and water bag break, umbilical cords will be out first and there will only be 20mins from then to get baby out. Prayed and tried out suggestions given by birth instructor to help baby turn.

37 weeks old

Jeanne turned. Head is down but not engaged. Gynae and birth instructor said it is not easy and not likely that baby will engage so soon because of slacker uterine muscles. Gynae kept the Caesarian appt just in case Jeanne turned again.

Pray that Jeanne will stay head down and I can have a natural birth…

37wks

J4 – 25 weeks old!

Gynae check at 25 weeks…

On this ultrasound scan, there is a shadow that looks as though there is a hand touching her face… maybe an angel…

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John and I had thought of a name for her… Jeanne… named after Saint Jeanne Jugan.

Dear Jeanne,

Dr say you are positioned upright in my tummy now and during the scan we could see your mouth opening and closing.. wondering what you are doing..

Mummy can now feel your kicks and movements everyday now.. You will have at least two times of hiccups everyday and Dr say it is a good sign of maturation and he say it should starts at a later part of pregnancy.

Kor Kor is especially looking forward to meeting you and is always telling me he wants to go to hospital to see you when you are born.. He is going to give you his favourite chocolates and fruits when you are born too.. haha! But mummy told him you are too young.. got to wait till you grow abit older. I wonder can you feel it when Kor plays drum on mummy’s tummy with his hands and him hugging you tightly?

Continue to grow grow grow… 3 more months to go!